Have I been avoiding a connection at home?
One might say so. But no, mostly it stems from my inability to “telephone”.

I mail.

That’s what I do on a cellphone: I mail.
Talking I don’t care that much for, if talking means spending more time than giving directions or saying “I’ll be late”.
It’s not that I am afraid of the phone. I just need to see people when talking. Mouths moving, or whatever.

…and that is why I haven’t ordered internet for half a year.

Now I have, though. Should be up in a month.